I had a moment the other day in church.
Everything was going great until the kids, who were all practically resuming school the next day, were called out for prayers, as they go back to school. As I watched them come out to the front, I felt a lump in my throat, it felt like the lump grew bigger when some mothers also came out carrying their babies, I tried to dismiss how I was suddenly feeling and focus on praying for the kids but instead, like monkeys on a tree, swinging from branch to branch, different thoughts started swinging through my mind…
“When will I have my own kids, that will call me mummy not Auntie Sherie.”
“What if I never get married and never have kids?”
“Aww, look at sis … carrying her baby, I wish that was me.”
With no time to recover at all, just as prayers for the kids rounded up, the pastor called out an intending couple. (Oh, come on!)
As the pastor talked about their upcoming wedding, more thoughts joined the others who were still swinging.
“When will it be my turn to be called out like this and my wedding announced?”
“How much longer?”
I’d like to tell you that in the midst of all that swinging, I immediately received a calming scripture or something like that, but no, I didn’t, I left church feeling rather upset.
The next day, as I went through some devotional materials, I came across ‘the calming scripture’, Psalms 56:3-4;
“But when I am afraid, I will put my trust in You. I praise God for what He has promised. I trust in God, so why should I be afraid?”
I felt like God was saying to me, “about yesterday, don’t be afraid, just trust Me”.
Oh, how it encouraged and strengthened my heart.
So, I thought to share and encourage you with it too, for when you are afraid, wondering if, why, when and how, know that you are not alone and choose to trust God, to keep trusting Him.
When you get anxious and have all these cares for today, about tomorrow or even from yesterday, you don’t have to carry it, letting it weigh you down, God cares about you and He wants you to cast them on Him, trust Him enough and do just that. (1 Peter 5:7)
“Our God is good and He loves us. Even when we can’t see His hands, we can still trust His heart.”